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Time to have fun!

It’s the weekend so let it begin!

That’s the idea anyway. It all depends on the weather and whether (I went there) there are fun things to do. I’m excited to meet up with the posse on Sunday. I really shouldn’t use the word posse, it doesn’t suit me. I like to try these things out occasionally but that one is a no-no.

What a week! (I’m going too far with the exclamation marks aren’t I? I figure third time’s a charm) I single handedly managed to cause epic drama from nothing at a birthday party, and still kinda have the high ground. I really didn’t do anything and it should be noted that even the people involved know this. Women are strange creatures that, frankly, I’ve given up trying to understand. The time has come to admit defeat on this matter. After a couple of drinks things like this matter less which is just as well because that same two drinks enables to me to do more than dribble a sentence in front of them. Having said that, another couple just reinstates the dribble and it’s much less pretty the second time around. Not to say that my bumbling baffoonary is in any way pretty. If anything it’s the opposite but at least I can stand and walk away with my dignity intact.

I have a feeling that more drama may catch up with me  but I don’t think I should be too bothered about it. I have no intention of following anything through. Is it legitimate to be jealous of someone even if they know they have no sinister intentions? Is it enough that you just don’t like them? Either way I’m not sure I care any more.

On with Le Weekend!!

The constant waiting around for the next step gets boring. Very boring. You want to move on, get out there, and do your own thing. But you can’t you’re trapped. So, what do you do? Do you wait around content with what you have? or do you make micro changes that make it seem like you’re getting there? Is that cheating?

Throughout my, albeit, short life I’ve noticed myself in this never ending spiral of “self improvement”. I want to know whether I’m wasting my time. I’m not sure I even enjoy it. It’s just something I’m expected to do. I think the highest expectations come from me. I don’t blame anyone for the way I am. It is somewhat frustrating not being able to just relax and think ‘This shit that I’m doing really doesn’t matter to anyone’ Yet here I am in a position where I feel it necessary to actually talk about how futile most of the stuff I do is. It’s got to the point where the dissatisfaction with my personal priorities is spilling over the edges into my peers consciousness.

It’s a pattern that has to stop. I need to take charge of what’s in my life. Even if I don’t enjoy something, by being in control I can at least give my self the best chance to get the most from it.

Hello all,

When something feels right you know it is. The converse is also true. But how to distinguish the parts of the right and the parts of the wrong that are actually right or wrong? Riddle me this; You like a car, it’s sexy, it’s fast, it’s comfortable, it’s convenient. Everything is “right” with it. There’s another car you like but it’s a little unknown. It’s sexier, it’s faster, it’s more comfortable, it’s cheaper. But it only has two seats compared with the four of the “right” car. Almost everything is better — but one thing is much worse…

But which to choose?

I suppose what I’m talking about is value and whether we should sometimes go against our values for the sake of a different experience. It bothers me that I’m not totally happy at the moment (as you’d expect) but it jars me that i’m scared to take a different path. I would probably tell someone else to take the plunge and change the situation but it’s so different when the shoe is on the other foot. I’m not totally convinced that the choices that have presented themselves are what I want to change to but would it be a means to an end?

At the moment I think there is far too much going on to really focus on one aspect of life. Hopefully in a few weeks some of that will be rectified.

I’ll keep all three of your posted when I get the chance.

-D

When is the right time to move on? I don’t just mean from relationships, but for anything. Work, house, car. I’m sure I’m not alone in feeling such a wrench from feeling comfortable. For some, understandably, feeling comfortable is a turn off. It doesn’t exactly turn me on but then if I’m not unhappy in a situation why should I change it? To find happiness? is it fear that stops us? the fear that any change will make will actually make us *less* happy?

I believe we need to take stock of our lives sometimes and assess what is good about it and what is bad. If the bad outweighs the good, things have got to change. If they don’t then we should be pleased that we don’t have such a bad life but we still need to make micro changes. Small adjustments that will ease our lives.

Thinking too much about it confuses the issue, stay focussed. Have an aim and go for it. Don’t sacrifice yourself for the unacheivable and find a route that is. Gone are the days where we get something for nothing. The harder you work, the greater the rewards. This can only be true if you pick the right journey. Somethings need to change to progress.

Unfortunately, we are part of a society that we cannot control so we are at the mercy of the decisions of others. Let *them* make the bad choices and reserve the good ones for yourself. There is much to be said about being selfish at times. Follow your heart with your brains guidance and, provided the two work ok, you’ll be alright if you head for that exit door.

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